Diary of a Drug Addict by Stephen E Crockett


You see them on street corners, hiding in doorways, furtively watching, waiting for their next fix, selling drugs, or perhaps they have just had a shot.

When you see drug addicts or alcoholics on the streets, or in the dark corners of bars, do you ever wonder why, and how, they became addicted?

What made this person take that particular route through life, and at what stage couldn’t they say no?

Perhaps you walk by pitying them, looking on with distain, smugly thinking that you will never be in their position, you would never become an alcoholic, or a drug addict. If you do, just stop and think. Who are you to judge? There is a very true saying “You cannot judge a person until you have walked a mile in their shoes.” As we go through our lives we make decisions, some very minor, or so we think at the time, however, everything we do comes with consequences. The face we put on to the world is not necessarily the person within, many of us hide behind masks. Sometimes this is done in the knowledge that we want to be deceptive, mislead, and bend a person to our will. However for many others it is a necessity, the only way to deal with the demons within, self-preservation.

Stephen Crockett life changed at a very early age, when he could no longer endure being surrounded by religious fanaticism, made to attend church, and being beaten if he asked questions.

It was in his 18th year however, just before graduation that his drug and alcohol abuse really took hold. Stephen had tried drink and marijuana before, however, whilst his fellow class mates were getting ready for the graduation photo, Stephen was sitting in the car park, passed out drunk. He missed his graduation ceremony because he was in hospital, recovering from asphyxia, and acute alcoholic poisoning.

Missing that ceremony seems to be a turning point, in his own mind he became invisible, unworthy, from then on he began his quest to blending into the background, suffering tremendous feelings of disappointment in himself, and depression.

His decision to leave the countryside for the town opened his eyes to a whole new world, and he became addicted to Heroin, the mother of all illegal drugs, which claims more lives than all the others put together. Stress and depression become his monsters in the closet, as trapped in his miserable existence he turns to drugs and alcohol. Soon he becomes part of the underground scene, dealing drugs, and living from fix to fix, in a drugs and alcohol induced haze.

This book, and its companion ‘Black Tar’ has opened my eyes to a world I knew nothing about. Stephen has a very frank way of writing, and in his own unique no holds barred style, he talks openly about the addiction he has had for decades.

What will the future hold for you if you go down the same route? Well, as Stephen so graphically explains, you will lose everything – no not just physical things, but yourself, self-worth, friends, and so much more.

So what has become of Stephen now?

Is he drugs free, and if so how did he do it?

Find out by reading his compelling story – I guarantee you it will be an eye-opener!


.From the Author: I have been writing for publication since 1996 and published the Bible based “The Prophet Code” in 2001. I followed that with “Bible Prophecy” in 2006 and then turned my attention to autobiographical truth-based fiction novels. My subjects and themes are drawn from many sources and each is blessed with its own sense of psychological horror. For your benefit, I am going to list my books in publication date order starting with “The Dark Man” which was published in 2010. “Black Tar: For the Love of Heroin” was published in 2012. “Ocular: The Monster in the Mirror” was published in 2013 and “Knob Hill: The Grey House Murders” was published in 2014. “The Island” was published in 2015 while “Ouija: The Devil’s Doorway” and “Diary of a Drug Addict” were published in 2016. “The Puppet Master” was published in 2017. All of these books are available on Amazon.com in the Kindle bookstore as Kindle ebooks. Just use your Kindle Fire or other reader and do a search on Stephen E Crockett. Download e-books at rock bottom prices.

About the Author:
The books authored by me and presented here represent my work in the adult horror genre. I believe that one of the writing requirements that sets me apart from other authors is my desire to write about subjects that are drawn from real life experiences. Every story is drenched with its own truth. Its own pain and loss, and on certain levels these stresses are horrible to deal with. I have always been willing to take the steps necessary to make sure the truth is never forgotten.
I have sacrificed everything to write. Friendships, relationships, marriages. Physical jobs that would lead to more creature comforts than I have enjoyed in the past. You’ve got to be a little possessed to live like this. But all artist are willing to endure these sacrifices. I’ve heard it said that writers are like doctors. We don’t have a plan B. Writing is how we are going to spend our lives and we know it from an early age.
When you start early, write all the time and save everything you write, you never lose anything. You may not know how your subjects are going to develop but everything you have captured stands ready to be a part of one story or another.
Eventually, characters from one file are joined with dialogues from another, backgrounds and environments from yet others, all coming together on the blank pages of a manuscript and that is where the magic happens. Writing has been an obsession that I have fed every day of every week, month in and month out, for as many years as I can remember.
I have been blessed with a keen sense of imagination and creativity and I thank the good Lord daily for blessing me with these skills and giving me my entire life to perfect them. I allow them to work their magic with the material I am always collecting. They draw from my reservoir of pain and loss to create story’s that are compelling, dramatic, mysterious and in some cases deadly. All of them are available as ebooks for you to read on your Kindle reader right now. Enjoy.

Available from Amazon in Kindle format https://www.amazon.com/Diary-Drug-Addict-Stephen-Crockett-ebook/dp/B01MYX17O0/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1488910986&sr=8-3&keywords=diary+of+a+drug+addict

To find out more about this author, his life, and books follow this link http://www.englishinformerintheuk.com/full-article/Interview-with-Stephen-E-Crockett to his exclusive interview in the English Informer in the UK  magazine.



Happy Chasing Happy: An Aimless High To Happiness Volume 1 Fight addiction by Jerome Jay Isip


Wow, what an inspirational book! So what is it about, I hear you ask?

Well, is it a memoir, a wake-up call, confessions, a fly on the wall book, inspirational, horrific, well I could just keep going. However, if I had to use one word it would be mind-blowing!

Jay Isip is very brave writing this very open book about his life. He writes with passion and absolute honesty about his paths in life, and looking back can see the reasons behind his behaviour.

Deliberately under achieving at school, he was a rebel and started very early on drink and drugs. He discusses very candidly alcohol addiction and the mind set of an addict, and how hard it is to come to terms with being labelled as one. Enter the world of drugs, as he says, he has tried them all, uppers, downers, the lot. I have lead a very sheltered life in respect of drugs, and his descriptions of the effects of Ecstasy and other drugs made for fascinating reading. However, looking back he can also see how the effects of drugs made him instantly ‘Mr popular’ and gave him a very warped outlook on life, behaviour and who were his friends.

Deep down though, Jay has true determination and grit, and it was this which lead him to a very successful MMA wrestling career. He was dedicated and well respected in the ring and outside. This book will be fascinating to fans of MMA, it contains a lot of his career, some brutal, sometimes horrific truths, and some really great photographs.

Then the tide turns, he loses three professional fights, then has his last Championship Title fight at Mass Destruction. Suddenly the self-destruction button kicks in, full pelt.

Mr Bad Boy is an understatement, girls, drink, booze, run-ins with the law, you name it, he done it, until he had a desperate suicide attempt. Suddenly Jay was made him look within and see himself in the cruel light of day.

And a harsh light it was. However, it gave him the strength to pick himself up, and change.

Now he is a successful business man, and best-selling author. It has been hard, but with the love and support of his family and friends, who are very important to him, he now lives by the beach and continues to fight professionally.

This book is fascinating to read. At the end I found myself totally in awe of this young man who has not only come through very difficult times but has had the strength to look back and write this very candid book as total inspiration to others. He done it, and you can too!


About the Author: Though Jerome “Jay” Isip now enjoys the success of being a professional MMA fighter, entrepreneur, and author, he is no stranger to the feelings of self-doubt, depression, and lack of direction that many people— young and old, male and female— struggle with at one point or another in life.

About the Book: There is hope for those who are lost in transition, addicted to drugs or alcohol, and those who are depressed because they see no way out.
An escape route from feeling trapped to freedom has been spelled out by retired Mixed Martial Arts fighter, Jerome “Jay” Isip, a success first in business and then as an author, who has published his second book focusing on a darker time in his life when alcohol and drugs ruled.
Although he is now a well-recognized author with several entrepreneurial ventures on his professional resume, he is no stranger to the feelings of self-doubt, depression and lack of direction that overwhelm so many teens and young adults. For Isip that period caused him to lead a life controlled by alcohol and drugs (prescriptions and street drugs) that almost ended his life. Then he climbed back from near self-destruction and found the courage to live a life of fulfillment, lasting happiness, clarity and purpose, and a joy that endures.
That story is told in Isip’s second book, Happy Chasing Happy: An Aimless High to Happiness (Volume 1 Fight Addiction) which is the no-holds barred memoir of an MMA fighter who got back up after defeat and found a worthwhile, successful life outside the ring. “Happy Chasing Happy is my new book series about my journey to happiness,” says Isip. “Readers will enjoy the colorful, hilarious, and emotional roller-coaster of events and lessons. I am no stranger to chasing ‘happy.’ Caught in the exciting, yet dangerous, cycle of seeking higher highs and lower lows and pushing the limits of my body, mind and spirit with drugs, alcohol and life experiences, I made the journey to the abyss and survived to tell the tale.” Inside the candid biography, this conversational, authentically-written book tells the story of a man on a mission to find his own version of happy in a way that only a kid from the streets of New Jersey could attempt.
Packed with vivid true stories, funny metaphors, and obscure pop-culture references, Happy Chasing Happy is a humorous, insightful, informative, and inspiring book that will entertain readers and find some hope for happiness.
Isip’s first book was the top selling inspirational and motivating “10 Stacks to Success: How to Achieve Success One Goal at a Time.” Isip has plans for publishing volume 2 of Happy Chasing Happy with emphasis on clearing the cloudy road away from smog to a self-driven life of clarity.

Available from Amazon in Paperback http://www.amazon.com/Happy-Chasing-Aimless-Happiness-addiction/dp/1683016386/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1455548742&sr=8-1&keywords=happy+chasing+happy

and Kindle format http://www.amazon.com/Happy-Chasing-Jerome-Isip-ebook/dp/B01AX8G1UG/ref=tmm_kin_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1455548742&sr=8-1


Black Tar: For the Love of Heroin by Stephen E. Crockett


A frank look at drug addiction. 

Well, I must start off this review by admitting that before reading this book I had no idea about the world I was about to enter as I turned its pages. I suppose for many that may sound a naive comment but it’s true, that’s not to say I don’t understand an addictive personality, I do, anyone can have an addiction to any number of things, but the world of drugs was new to me.

This very frank autobiography starts at the very beginning, as they say as we learn how he suffered a terrible fever with which he experienced hallucinations by day, and night terrors at night, aged twelve in 1972. His teenage years were, I suppose typical for many children at that time, and he experimented with drugs and alcohol, and embraced the rock and roll culture of that era. Soon however, his experimentation with increasing more potent drugs became a heroin addiction which was to influence his life for many years.

Throughout this book his world is eye-opener. His obsession with the girl with the golden eyes (Heroin) overtakes his existence, and despite managing to stop taking it at various times, his life seems to be one of continual struggle just to survive.

As we travel life’s journey with him, there are no holds barred, everything is laid out in front of us, the love, death, tragedies and despair, until we find ourselves wondering, how can one man survive so much?

But, survive he did, but is he clean?

The bravery of this author in opening up like he has, must be admired, I found this book extremely interesting, however, I can see that if you have a family member or friend in the same situation, this could well be invaluable as an aid to understanding them.


About the Author: The books previewed on this website represent my work in the adult horror genre. My stories are drawn from real life experiences so a good part of each is, in effect, true. Of course I have taken a writer’s liberty with each but the truth is never forgotten no matter how I twist the facts. As a result every one of these books can be traced to a specific location and a specific person or group of people. They begin with the horror story “The Dark Man,” (2009), which is based on a true story that occurred in Advance, North Carolina and as implied by the narrative is still occurring today. I followed that with “Black Tar: For the Love of Heroin,” (2010), a bird’s eye view into the daily life of a heroin addict, from addiction to destruction, to a valiant struggle to get clean and live a sober life as a recovering addict.

The personal view of addiction portrayed in Black Tar is followed by a collection of short stories entitled “Wicked Tales from a Twisted Mind” (2011). This book contains five stories which are either very personal or were drawn from the local news. They include serial killers, suicide, homicide, heroin addiction and two tales of occult tragedy. This collection of incredibly interestingly stories range from those who dabble in the occult and unfortunately lose their lives, to murderous newlyweds (It’s in the Will) and drug abusers (“Smack”) and people so tired of living they just want to die. (“Suicide.”)

These are followed by the lovable “Devil’s Kin” (2012), a work of total fiction that feeds off the words “wraith and “fetch.” “Devil’s Kin” is a writer’s project. It’s just one of those books that wells up inside you and demands to be written. You may find it interesting and it my not be your cup of tea. It was a blast to write, and I laughed the whole way so I hope you enjoy it.

My next offering is another collection of short stories entitled “Skeleton Keys.” Skeleton Keys was released in April of 2014. In it I return to the characters and territories of my first two books. “Skeleton Keys” cover subjects ranging from religious fanaticism, to drug abuse, homelessness, suicide, demonic possession and murder. As you can see I stick to my chosen subjects with true stories that can be considered skeleton’s in my closet. Understanding these stories is to understand me. Each key opens its own particular door and a possession of one kind or another is waiting behind each one.

“Ocular: the Haunting of Peacock Hill” (2014) is by far the best book I have ever written. It is a delicate blend of truth and fiction and makes for one hell of a read. Editors and reviewers alike describe it as a triumph on my part. “Topping perfection with yet more perfection.”

To be honest there are stories in these collections that scare me and when asked about their autobiographical nature I can only say; “I have been writing about one subject or another for as long as I can remember. When you write all the time you never lose anything. You may not know how subjects are going to develop but you have faithfully captured them, in files and folders, and they stand ready to be a part of one story or the other. High School drew the writer in me to the surface and it became an obsession that I have fed every day of every week for as many years as I can remember.

The early years of my life, particularly my late teens and early twenties were heavily influenced by substance abuse and a lifestyle that is best left alone. Living through such danger is no small feat but to emerge with stories to tell is an accomplishment that is almost never heard of. But here I am ready to reveal my treasures. To tell my stories and regale you with tales from which it may seem impossible to survive. Mine is a soul shaped by gritty, life changing experiences. Living it and writing it down as it happened and then weaving its various parts into a whole is not an easy thing to do.

I spent twenty-odd years studying the Kabbalah, The Golden Dawn and all forms of mystical-magical practice. The grandest knowledge I have ever gleaned from active research and practice is the mechanics of Precession and the impact that the Great Year cycle had on Judeao-Christian theology. During this period I sharpened my instincts and developed my writing skills. As a result I produced two books. “The Prophet Code” (2001) and “Bible Prophecy” (2007). The Prophet Code was first, however Bible Prophecy is better so the first is out of print while the second can be found on Amazon.com as a paperback on in Kindle form and on the CreateSpace book shelf. As proud as I am of Bible Prophecy I am not, nor have I ever claimed to be a theologian and while precession is certainly a lofty subject and the wisdom revealed in Bible Prophecy, is a knowledge worth obtaining, I never planned to spend my life writing about religious subjects.

This period instilled in me a strong desire to write stories where truth guided my pen so I weave truth and fiction in every story I write. I am blessed with a keen sense of literary creativity and am able to draw from a reservoir of dramatic experiences that have shaped my world and colored my life. The subjects captured in the books I have published are the result of the last ten years of writing and the last forty years of living. I have always felt it reasonable to assume that experiences and certain veins of knowledge could be turned into books. For that reason I have always felt it critical to write down everything that crosses my path. “Weak ink is better than a strong mind.” Nobody can be expected to remember everything – or with time anything – so writing down everything is critical to story telling.

There’s a lot of death and substance abuse in my writings and they are mirror images of my life. I have lost a lot of friends to drugs and car accidents and truthfully I am amazed to be alive myself. But that’s life when you lose yourself in drugs for a long period of time. Heroin and alcohol are unforgivable and I’m just lucky to be alive. So I’m sharing my experiences and while I may be accused of giving certain stories a romantic slant the truth still comes through and the nasty, gritty side of drug addiction is not lost or forgotten. It is what it is and if your going to write about it you might as well tell the truth. My stories are not precious and light. I spend a lot of time writing about the darkness of heroin abuse and the horrors of being homeless, penniless and friendless. Drugs will do that to you and the road back to soberity is a long one but should you live through it the adventure can only be described as incredible.

The decision to turn my stories into books has been a long, hard road and writing at a professional level takes long hours and patient editors. I’ve been blessed with good help along the way and while my support has changed from time to time I have a team of editors and artist that make my books the success they are. So read “The Dark Man” and “Ocular: The Haunting of Peacock Hill” because they are both good horror storys and you won’t expect what you find therein. You should also read “Black Tar: For the Love of Heroin” because its a cautionary tale that deserves reading. The same can be said of “Wicked Tales From a Twisted Mind” because of the short stories “Smack” and “Suicide” although there are some other interesting stories in that book and these two particular stories don’t go like you might think. “Skeleton Keys” is another collection of short stories that deals with the subjects of religious poison, heroin addiction, suicide and homelessness. It marks the end of this portion of my writing. Passions and subjects change so I plan to keep writing and you can look forward to future publications.

Author’s Website: http://www.stephenecrockett.com/#!

About the Book: Black Tar is an auto-biographical look at the use of heroin and the toll it takes on the addict and his surroundings. It is written from an addict’s perspective and details the day to day existence of one junkie as he lives from fix to fix and watches as his life spirals from alcohol, pills and Cocaine to heroin. His attempts to free himself and live a sober life are always half hearted at best and so his casual drug use spirals from a clean life, with a job and the hope of a family to a heroin addict; living hand to mouth – unemployed and desperate on the streets of Winston Salem. In this smack tinted world the extremes are overdose and withdrawal and our leading man suffers through his share of both. In the end he finds himself dangling between the fix that will kill him and sobriety.

Black Tar is available from Amazon in Kindle format http://www.amazon.com/Black-Tar-Heroin-Stephen-Crockett-ebook/dp/B009HTG9EG/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1421942598&sr=8-1&keywords=black+tar+by+stephen+crockett

and Paperback http://www.amazon.com/Black-Tar-For-Love-Heroin/dp/1480000124/ref=tmm_pap_title_0?ie=UTF8&qid=1421942598&sr=8-1